i miss

i miss everything. i miss secondary school i miss my friends. i miss the environment. i miss the teachers. i miss how things were how easily i could talk to friends. i miss how i didn't have to worry so much about so many things i.e. the only thing worrying mostly revolved around academics. i hate change. i really do. i can't stand it. what's wrong with me. one moment i'm perfectly fine and the next this overwhelming feeling of sadness and despair just swallows me up. i don't know why. i said i don't understand. i really don't. i wish things didn't have to change. i'm afraid of the future. i really am. but everyone has to go through this, so why am i afraid? i don't understand. why are our minds so complicated in thinking, or mine at least. can't thoughts just flow in simpler so that troubles wouldn't have to flood my soul so much and causing this unpredictable mood-swings that are really starting to get on my nerves. this is annoying.

Why

It's been so long since i've posted something. No one visits anyway, and that's good.

I wouldn't want anyone to know anyway.

I hate to share, i really don't like it at all. I'd rather keep everything to myself than share it with someone. And when i just need someone to talk to, there's nobody. So what's the point anyway. We're all human, not like humans can be there forever and whenever when you need them.

So many things have happened, so many changes. But it's life isn't it. Move on.

Sometimes I just don't understand everything that's happening, i don't understand why people think this way, i don't understand why i think that way, i don't understand so many things. And it's really bugging me cos I hate not understanding things. But then again, we're humans, not super-humans with terribly good understanding of things happening around us.

There are so many things i've experienced, that no one else i know seems to have experienced it before. But it's because of all these, that people don't understand. They don't know what it's like and they assume things based on the 'norm'. But i know what's happening, what's going on, and then i suffer and feel all horrible because people don't understand and misunderstand and keep assuming. They assume so much i don't even wanna explain. What's the point of explaining anyway. Not like it can change things. Honestly i don't even know why i'm posting this cos the feeling of wanting to talk to someone is gone. Usually, i would be over it already and moved on. But life's so hard sometimes i just can't keep it to myself. At least i've vented it out somewhere. I don't want people to know what i'm thinking either, so this dead blog is the perfect place. Hope it remains this way.

This post is to declare that Liew Hsin Ern is my beloved partner and will always be mine. :D ♥ Hi partner. nice to meet you. Hehehehehehehe. Is there anything else I'm supposed to say?

Hi Partner, nice to meet you. see, i dedicated a post to you.

Came across this in an email. It's freaaaaking coool!

The Beauty in English Language ....ONLY THE ENGLISH COULD HAVE INVENTED THIS LANGUAGE

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,
But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.
One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,
Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.
You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,
Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.
If the plural of man is always called men,
Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?
If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,
And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?
If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,
Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?
Then one may be that, and three would be those,
Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,
And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.
We speak of a brother and also of brethren,
But though we say mother, we never say methren.
Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,
But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!
Let's face it - English is a crazy language.
There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren't invented in England ..
We take English for granted, but if we explore its paradoxes,
we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square,
and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.
And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,
grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?
Doesn't it seem crazy that you can ! make amends but not one amend.
If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?
If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?
If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.
In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?
We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.
We have noses that run and feet that smell.
We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.
And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposite
You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down,
in which you fill in a form by filling it out, and in which an alarm goes off by going on.
And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother's not Mop?

AND IF PEOPLE FROM POLAND ARE CALLED POLES THEN PEOPLE FROM HOLLAND SHOULD BE HOLES AND THE GERMANS, GERMS!

No offence intended. It's from an email. :D

Was on the train today and heard a caucasian mum saying this.

"A comic is a thin, flimsy thing..."

I don't know why, I just think it's cool. Maybe it's the way she said it as well. Oh well. Byebye.

Tan Huilin wants me to blog about today, and so I shall.

Woke up at 645 to go to OLGC for friendly match. Yeah, had pretty few problems. Met huilin at Redhill MRT at 8. Took the MRT to Serangoon then bus to OLGC. When we went there, guess what. There were 3 schools there. OLGC, GESPS, QTSS. SJIJ came later. A lot of people huh. And, their courts, are slippery. Like ours.

BUT, the wind there was MUCH worse. Can't stand it la. Every match we played, there will be wind. =.= Oh well. Played singles and doubles with THL.

Oh, Jillene left at 10, and Kimberley left at 12. Wanted to leave at 2 but THL saw the SJIJ boys and decided to, well, stay. (: Until 5. And so we did.

So went for lunch at about 2pm. IT'S FUNNY. We went to MACS to eat. Somewhere near the bus interchange.

Yeah, rewind. We were walking to the bus stop to take the bus. Then, at the turning, we saw the bus! AND THE BUS STOP WAS FARRRRRRR! So, you know what we did?

RUNNNN! YES RUN FOR OUR LIVES!!!

Hahahahah. When the bus came, the bus driver was smiling lah!!!!! SO EMBARRASING! BUT IT WAS FREAKING COOL! The people in the bus were like staring at us. Hahahahahahahahaha. Okay, that's embarrasing moment NUMBER 1.

Okay, so tried to find our way to Macs. THL led. (She's not a very good leader. Hahahahahah.) I ordered double cheese, she ordered filet o fish without the sauce. Lol. AND THEN! HERE COMES EMBARRASING MOMENT NO. 2!

'Cos I couldn't tell if her drink was milo or coke. So I said, "Is that milo?" Yeah, then she said no. Then the cashier thought we were talking to him! And he said "What?" Then we were smiling and, "Nothing, nothing, nothing". Hehehehehehee.

At that point I decided to have 5 embarrasing moments (though not achieved).

Third, while I was drinking my drink, I pulled the straw up. it made a sound. I pushed it down. Another sound. Hahahahah. Yeah, you can guess what I started doing. (Up and down, down and up so on and so forth). THL apparently was EMBARRASED. HAHAH. Okay, that's number 3.

Then we got on the bus, went to the seat near the door. I started "jumping" on the seat. Yeah, but there was no one, so nothing to be embarrased about. Yeah, went back played. Went home at 5pm.

END OF STORY. Long post, I know. And I won't be posting for a while now. :D

You should go to her blog for more dramatic moments. Go to my links, QTSS. Find Tan Hui Lin. Click, then relink, then relink again. Haha. :D